| Hey everyone.. |
[Oct. 16th, 2003|11:22 am] |
well guys, this is it.
I am no longer updating my Livejournal because I've moved on to bigger and better things.
I'm not deleting this journal in case I change my mind later on.
If you want to see what I'm up to, go here:
http://www.xanga.com/angstypunk
It's been fun, but things change.
Ja ne. |
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| heya! |
[Sep. 25th, 2003|06:18 pm] |
hey guys, I'm very, very sorry, but well, I've been having so many problems at home, mainly with my mom.
I'll write a longer update later, I just wanted to say I'm back, so expect some comments from me :) |
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| just a little note. |
[Jul. 16th, 2003|01:33 pm] |
if you havent been seeing any messages lately, its because my journal is friends only [again], so if you're listed, cool, and if not, but want to be listed, just comment here ^_^
thanks ^__^ |
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| new screen name... |
[Jun. 16th, 2003|10:21 am] |
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my new screen name is Scars Cant Fade. IM me there suckahs |
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| sick x.x |
[Jun. 15th, 2003|11:20 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Castle in The Sky-Happy Hardcore | ] |
I think I have bronchitis, and I cant sing ;_:, poo!
I think Alan Rickman is hawt)(Professor Snape from the Harry Potter movies)...I love pasty boys with black hair >D, yeah, hes a little old, but I say hes cute. and so is Edward Norton (Death to Smoochy), I love that movie, heh.
can't wait to start work ^___^ ; I only get paid once a month, which is why I want to work 2 part time jobs :)
I am officially single..and I think I'm going to stay that way forever. Guys just complicate everything and when you think things are going fine, boom, you're splitsville, and it really hurts, I wish that there were someway Nick and I could get back together, but that won't happen...
c'est la vie..=/
http://www16.brinkster.com/iamdeath/peterpan.jpg
his name is Adam. and yes, I suck at drawing guys :) |
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| i got a job ^__^ |
[Jun. 14th, 2003|10:59 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
okay, so I went to Costco for my interview, to find out it was postponed until the 17th, a 3..however, before then, Darlene (from the library) called, to tell me my hours...
so, if you live in Nassau County then come visit meee XD
work hours:
Monday-off
Tuesday-9 am to 1 pm
Wednesday-9 am to 5 pm
Thursday-9 am to 1 pm
Friday- 1 pm to 6 pm
Saturdays and Sundays: off
I hope I can get two part time jobs, if I work 20 hours at Costco, and the hours at the library, I get about 1200 after taxes. |
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| hehehehehe |
[Jun. 13th, 2003|08:15 am] |
yaaay!
I went to high school on Thursday XD XD XD
It was great! I saw Yani! and Alex, and Sam, and my teachers, and Venuncio, and Joel and Kelly, and whats her face...Emily :D
My teachers kept telling me I looked great, and I really missed them ;_:, my friend Joel kept calling me goth, and when I went to say hi to Kelly and Em, this guy name Michael asked Kelly why she knew so many goth people >.>
I am not goth! Argh, I hate labels. I am myself, thank you very much, and nothing less, nothing more.
W00t! I can back from high school, and my dad told me I got a call from Costco, so now I have an interview at 3. I hope it goes well, because I wanna get paid 10.50 an hour ;_;
It was sooo hot, omggggg, I forgot how adorable Yani was ;_; I am so glad I saw her =3 and she was very happy to see meeeee, and I'm happy I'm styaing home for college, because shes going to commute to SVA (School of Visual Arts), and I'm going to major in music at NCC in the spring semester.
lol, I went to the eye doctor. My mom spends 300+ dollars on herself for glasses, but makes me get free ones? d00de, my insurance is u p in August, lemme get stuff before then...
anyways, even if I don't get a job at Costco, I'm guaranteed a job at the library, but they only pay 6.50...which is still not bad I suppose, but I'm a starving artist...with expensive wants =3
I <3 Yani!!!!!!
You are... Edward Scissorhands - "I'm not
finished..."
You have a low self-esteem, but a golden heart.
Sometimes you can be a little naieve, but it
has become one of your endearing qualities. You
value the lives of your loved ones and acn find
beauty in almost anything... now all you need
to do is find beauty in yourself.
What movie quote are YOU?
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| another art update.. |
[Jun. 10th, 2003|06:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
and if you can't see the picture:
http://www16.brinkster.com/iamdeath/fox.jpg
I guess this is going to be an art journal, maybe I should have cleaned it up more..maybe I'll color it..who knows?
Can't wait to visit the old high school tomorrow, and my hairs all dyed and everything :P |
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| im going. |
[Jun. 5th, 2003|08:49 pm] |
hey everyone..
I'm going away for a while, don't know when I'll be back, probably in a few months, who knows?
i have to go away, away from this house. im going to a place for kids with disabilities. its a vocational school, and i might live there, if i can.
i love you all and will miss you guys
<3 Rachel |
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| been thinking. |
[Jun. 2nd, 2003|01:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Invitation To The Jellice Ball-Cats Soundtrack | ] |
well, most likely, this thing with Nick won't work out. And that's okay. Not every relationship is meant to work out. So:
I don't think I'll be looking for a new boyfriend for quite sometime, unless they do, or say something to me that I can never, ever forget. I don't think I wan't to go hurting myself again, there's just some things I do not need in my life right now.
I never expected things to be so complicated. I never expected anything to go so badly, but it did. And I've learned something from it.
I still have no job, I'm still looking for one. As of now, I am not going back to college, however, I might go to a vocational school for students with disabilities. They train you and get you jobs, and that might be what I need.
But I would like money for a Ps1+DDR, and some painting supplies I'd like. the PS1 and DDR would run me a 100 (I know some people :D), and painting stuff would run me between 40. Then I'd save to rest to go to college if I don't go to vocational school, and for other things. |
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| Air Force... |
[May. 30th, 2003|10:58 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  okay | ] |
I'm thinking about enrolling into the US Air Force. I mean, nothing good is happening around me, I have no reason to hang around, and the Air Force pays for your college (which I need), they get you jobs, you get free housing, food, medical and dental stuff, and you get to go all over the world.
The only thing is, could I just pick up my things and leave everyone behind? |
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| what do you do? |
[May. 28th, 2003|02:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bring me To Life MIDI-Evanescence | ] |
what do you do when the persom you truly care for tells you he wants to break up with you?
I don't know what to do. I should just obey him,but I can't let him go. I'm not ready to...
someone please help me =/ |
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| yesterday x.x |
[May. 26th, 2003|02:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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I..am..not..travelling..with..my..mom AGAIN!.
She got so pissed because she got pulled over by the cops because my mom and dad weren't wearing seatbelts, so she got two tickets for 80 dollars each. Well, it said in the news that in and around NYC, there will be more cops and more checks for security reasons.
As I was going to Warwick, NY, we had to pass through the city (what a surprised there -_-;), and we saw army men inspecting vans and stuff. It was really cool, I've never seen real army men before.
My mom threw a big fit and said she's going to fight it, even though it was OBVIOUS it was her fault for not buckling up in the first place.
Right. Anyways, I am applying to Petworks so that I can get a job and some money. I didn't make any money off my store, or my chibi commissions, but that's okay, I didn't expect to in the first place :)
Maybe I can ask my mom to loan me 40 dollars and when I get a job and my first paycheck, I'll give some to her.
PLEEAASSEEEE let me get a job -_-; |
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| alright boys and girls... |
[May. 24th, 2003|08:09 pm] |
Okay, I need money, really badly. It turns out my mom took 125 from me and spent it and now won't give any of it back to me. So I am raising money. How?
number 1: I have applied for a job near my home, I am hoping I'll get it, but I applied Wednesday and still no reply..but it is the weekend and all, so I don't know. On Tuesday,I shall seek out more employment :)
number 2: http://cafepress.com/chibiworld I have set up a Cafepress store. PLEASE, PLEASE buy something, even if it's only a sticker, I'd really appreciate it, and I really don't like begging, but I need to come up with 600 for college, plus some extra (for a canvas, paintbrushes and some paint for Nick's birthday), unless anyone has some art stuff they could donate (I'd love you forever!)
number 3: Chibi fundraiser. Whats that you ask? well:
If you give me five dollars, I'll draw you a chibi of anyone you like color it with colored pencils, or computer, possibly markers, if you prefer, whatever you want, you'll get.
for a lowly $5:
a chibi drawing of any character you wish
drawn in my style on a 8x11" sketchbook paper
inked and colored with a computer, colored pencils, or markers (possibly)
original drawing is mailed to you <3
shipping is free inside the U.S
if you're interested, then PLEASE email me:
queenserenity@anime-genesis.com, or: leave a comment in my livejournal
I will thank you forever!! |
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| I think I got it! |
[May. 23rd, 2003|12:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  artistic | ] |
I know Nick likes Chii from Chobits..
so this is what I'm going to get him for his birthday:
a Chii keychain
a Chii poster
and a Chii plushie
and..
I'm going to go out, buy canvas, brushes, and paints, and paint him Chii with that bunny thing that she sees in those books :)
I hope he likes this stuff :D
added: okay well, I guess this is my new livejournals 'look'...I was thinking about the first time Ni-chan and I kissed <3 We were playing Pocket Tanks, lol how cheesy :D |
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| ....I am clueless. |
[May. 21st, 2003|08:54 pm] |
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Okay, I know this is a bit early, but Ni-chan's birthday is July 28th. And I have no idea what to get him.
I thought of buying him an X Box and a copy of Halo, and possibly Splinter Cell, but I was talking to Nick's friend Steve, and he said if I did that, it would be like castrating Nick and waving it in his face. Steve said that Nick could never match it, but I really don't know what to give a 20 year old for his birthday.
I was thinking about a cel from Inu Yasha, possibly Trigun, but Steve said it wasn't Nicks' style.
I love him, but I don't know what the heck to do. And the last time we spoke was on Friday, and I wish, I could see him online, or that he would call me or something, I really, really miss him.
I wish he could read this, I wish I could fly up to Buffalo for his birthday, but I would have no place to stay.
Any ideas? |
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| $$$ |
[May. 19th, 2003|06:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | la radio | ] |
I need as much money as I can get this summer.
I'm going to CLEP some courses, get 6 credits there, then apply to NCC and take two classes there, but am going to have to pay for it myself.
My goal is to get at least 2 grand in the summer, and work in the fall and such and continue to get money until I go back to Morrisville in January..
I'm going to put in an application for a 6 dollar an hour job, just until I can find a higher paying job, which I can, I just need to get my resume together :) I would love to work 8 or 9 hours a day, 6 days a week,until I meet my goal.
My wish list:
-pay for college in the fall (106 per credit, times 6 credits)
-an ibook (so my parents won't have to yell at me at being on the computer
-a router to hook up an ibook to the cable modem
-an ipod (to store mp3's)
and, a Wacom Intuos..
I wish I could do commissions, but I don't think anyone would hire me or anything..and I do mostly chibi's, and I would charge 5 dollars for an ink and colored chibi, with a background or whatever, but I don't know anyone who'd buy, so that's out of the question.
I'm going to save up every single penny I get, I have 125 left over from scholarhip money, then my sis says if she sees me work hard, she'll give me 20, and then I'll save up all my birthday money and everything (with the exception of Nick's and Hannah's birthday), I'll do anything to get money ;_; (well, except prostitute myself)... |
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| I'm home |
[May. 18th, 2003|01:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | confused | ] |
my parents came to get me on friday, when they said they were coming up on Saturday..
So now I'm home. Going to get a job and stuff, not sure what I'm going to do about school, I might CLEP some classes and earn credits like that, and I'm going to see what happens in the fall.
My parents have an 11pm curfew for tv and computer, and is making everyone do this stupid diet in which they weigh themselves at least 8 times a day and then shout out how much they've lost, quite annoying to me.
I miss Nick, but I'm not crying anymore :)
I talked to him on the phone for a half hour yesterday, and then online for like 10 minutes, but thats okay.
Sorry for the short post, I'll write more later. |
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| resume.. |
[May. 15th, 2003|05:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
my mom has some jobs lined up for me in the city, mostly Data Entry, Web Dev stuff, and Help Desk shtuff, so here's my resume:
Jasc Paint Shop Pro version 7.02 (very experienced)
Adobe Photoshop version 7.0 (somewhat experienced)
Microsoft Office (Excel, Word, Access, Frontpage, Powerpoint, Outlook)-(very experienced in everything but Access, somewhat experienced in Access)
has used SmartFTP, CuteFTP and has ran an ftp server
knows Perl/Cgi, HTML, DHTML, Javascript
has been wed designing for four years
belonged to Web Page Club in high school
Participated in a program to help give underprivlidged kids computers in senior year of high school
has answered questions/helped out at high school library with computer issues
very experienced with Macromedia Dreamweaver/Dreamweaver MX
some experience with Macromedia Flash
has knowledge of basic desktop building schools
basic knowledge of LINUX and DOS
can use Adobe Photoshop on a Mac
knows minimal C++, has used Microsoft C++ and Microsoft Visual Studio Dot Net
has basic 3d modeling skills using Lightwave Maya (all versions)
has experience with fixing blue screens, system errors, installing hardware and peripherals (including a wirless card/wireless network, cable modem, etc)
can Telnet using Windows
has used Windows 95,98, 98se, XP Pro ad XP Home
did art work for a flash project
think thats good enough? |
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